it started with him telling me to trust him…⁣ ⁣ even though ..

it started with him telling me to trust him…⁣
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even though i felt resistance, i decided to lean in.

he strapped my ankles & wrists down to the bed.

spread wide open, nowhere to hide⁣
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wherever he wants to take me, i’ll go ⁣
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i felt the intensity of the cold ice cubes he slid down my back to my thighs⁣
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i felt the leather of the impact toys on my body⁣
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oh, the sweet suspense of that next spanking⁣ 👋🏼
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*I experienced an embodied revelation of what true surrender feels like⁣*
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surrender to the mystery, to sensation, to my lover, to god, to the lover that is life itself ⁣
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surrender to the gift of the divine masculine⁣
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i feel his confidence to direct & dominate, from an embodied place of love⁣
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he penetrates me with Truth. ⁣
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the BDSM subspace is the key to my empowered liberation⁣
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as i submit & surrender even deeper, i melt into my truest expression⁣
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releasing thoughts, fears, anxieties⁣

⁣expanding my capacity to FEEL⁣
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holding all sensation, all at once, as holy & welcome⁣

i’m devoured in his embrace⁣
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i feel myself melting open⁣
in love⁣
as love⁣
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his pries open all the parts of me that have been closed off & contracted⁣
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parts of me were still holding on though. i was afraid of losing who i think i am⁣
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*sweet girl⁣,* how she spent most of her life building up an identity⁣
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parts of her were reluctant to let go⁣. to these parts, surrender feels like a loss of power⁣
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i breathe. ⁣ 🌬
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i allow my lover to have his way with me. and i remember the fullness of love in every cell of my body⁣
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i relax as the radiance of love itself..open so wide into love that my personality vanished⁣
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separation dissolved.⁣
god becomes two.⁣
two become one. ⁣
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i remembered what i have always been, since before my body was birthed on earth⁣
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sounding, speaking in ancient tongues⁣
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i allow source consciousness to use me as a vessel ⁣
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the codes of light language stream through me⁣ 🪐
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a joy ride with god⁣, love making portal with the divine⁣
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the ecstasy of losing myself in the present moment⁣
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*i merge with the holiest of holies in the dungeon of dark love*⁣
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when you’re tied down at the mercy of someone else, you have no idea what to expect.⁣
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i allowed myself to stop needing to know what’s next⁣
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our spicy, kinky, BDSM ritual…is our altar of devotion. ⁣
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don’t fear the mystery, my friends⁣
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make love to it⁣. be devoted to your desires. ⁣
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❣️**Let me know in the comments:**
*Will you lean into love? or resist it?*

@kaiaandleo