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And it grew into an all-encompassing obsession. It grew into a large belly hanging over the front of my waistband. It grew into plush thighs and a heavy ass. It grew into a face fattened out of handsomeness and into swollen unrecognizability, and a thickening double chin that I wear like a deliciously mortifying collar.
It's incredible to think what I've turned myself into.